Ridiculous Happiness

This summer has been THE summer that has changed me and how I view my life. I have had a lot of people tell me that my life is "interesting" and I always ask them why? Because I survived a genocide/civil war that left over 800,000 people dead in a period of three months? Because I speak multiple languages? Because I'm LOUD? I don't know...I just always feel like people really do exaggerate when they say how interesting I am. But this past summer, starting from the month of July, I began to see that my life is indeed somehow interesting. Probably not the most interesting but maybe just a little. I started really examining my life and all that I have gone through and thought...wow, what a journey I'm on....What a Life!

So, what exactly happened in the month of July 2014 that made me rethink my life? Well, from the title of this post "Ridiculous Happiness" its obvious that the summer ended well....it led to ridiculous happiness on my part! So, let me tell you just a snapshot of what exactly happened within a period of 5 weeks during the summer.

On July 23rd of 2014, I went to the Labor and Delivery room and found out that my baby girl who my family and I were looking forward to spending thanksgiving with had died in my womb. She was 28 weeks. She just stopped breathing....just like that! Her name is Clarette Belle. As we were finishing with the funeral and grieving, my father-in-law passed away. 2 Weeks after my father in law passed away, my grandmother passed away. We were grieving the loss of 3 deaths all in one....but I was still hang up on the death of my daughter. Going through labor and childbirth and the usual body changes that take place in a woman's body after childbirth like milk production were taking place in my body even though I had no child. This was the hardest part of grieving. 

After all this, I'm happy to say that 5 months after, I have ridiculous happiness! I'm ridiculously happy! Matter fact, when I returned to work after my medical leave, we had a new hire who had just met me who looked at me and said...."Clementine, you are happy all the time, you must go to church all the time"! Can you believe it? I was surprised because at that moment in time, I felt the opposite but I was happy because that was a big compliment at that time. I wanted things to just get back to normal!

More to come.....